just stalked my flickr.

i miss photography.

i miss taking pictures and getting home and editing them and looking forward to showing them off to the world.

i swear to god i can't keep a main priority for more than two days. First i want to be a photographer, then a writer, then an animal ecologist, then a human ecologist.

fuq all dat. i really sincerely think i know what i want to do now. i want to travel the world, taking pictures and writing about what i see. for money, i can either write for a magazine, or start saving money now. i don't know yet. all i know is that i am happiest when i am doing one of three things: writing, taking pictures, or swimming. all while listening to moooosic. i love it. and all these things and i know they will have to be in my life in the future.

it's scary to think about, but my future is right around the corner. yet it's exhilarating. i can't wait for college, for meeting new people, seeing new places, doing new things. i don't know where i want to go yet, but i know that i have to get to paris as soon as possible. every day is a day away, opportunities missed, museums i need to see, etc. cheesy but, i just miss it. anything and everything about it.

i don't know how i will do without my mom yet. without cinnamon, without bob, without my kittiez: cosmo and grace. i honestly dont know. all i know is that i just want so much, and every day i try to get a little bit closer to something while getting a little further away from something else.

i swear i just don't know. just let everything be okay.