The Catcher in the Rye

We are just closing the study of this book in English. And it's weird, but i feel like Holden, the main character, have a lot in common. We both hate phony people, we both cannot stand pretending, and, well, we both have problems with loneliness, if his is quite a bit more pronounced. Holden has no motivation, and i feel like that is one of my biggest problems too. It's just like all of a sudden things in my life are just reiterating that fact that i need to correct this confidence issue. I was sitting in class, (the wrong class, but that is irrelevant) writing this essay about Holden, and one of his many episodes. And as i was sitting there, talking about how Holden had no motivation, and how he needed to be motivated to succeed, i couldn't help but compare myself to him. It is hard being seventeen. Sure, i'm only fifteen, but it's hard being a teenager in general. And i know that. And Holden is going through a lot of the same things that i am. Granted, our situations are not exactly the same, but i can't help but compare myself to him. I feel like if i was able to have a conversation with Holden, a real, in depth conversation, it would really help both of us. And that's ridiculous, i know. To imagine having a conversation with a fictional book character. But i really wish it was possible, because it would be really incredible to have a conversation with someone who could have a new look at my situation. I just can really, finally relate to a book i'm reading in english. I hated I Never Promised You a Rose Garden. Hated it. i hated all the characters, and i just couldn't stop thinking about how the main character, Deb, the schizophrenic, should shut up and just get better so that the book could be over and we could be spared from her monotonous droning. But with Holden, i could relate to why he was so sad. How he didn't feel like he had a friend in the world. Needless to say, i liked the book and i liked how i could relate to it.