When I hear the words "be yourself", I think immediately to middle school. Because that is when I heard those words constantly, and, well, I was sort of a hypocrite. I never really was myself. Middle school was really rough for me. I wasn't bullied or anything, and of course I had friends, but I never really felt like I fit in. I never really felt like I had a best friend, somebody I could call up in the middle of the night to tell stuff to, or anyone like that. I felt I was closer to my family than I was to my friends, and there was really no drama at all for me to deal with. And I wasn't myself. I hung out with my friends, and I was interested in stuff they were interested in, but there was also stuff I was interested in that I didn't really get to bring to the surface. After I think of that, I think of my appearance. Probably like, wearing my hair like I want, wearing whatever clothes I want, whatever. I think the biggest thing that comes to mind when I think of being myself is that I am afraid to. My lack of self-confidence really brings me down sometimes, and forces me to be somebody that's not exactly me.
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