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• day 32: whether you’d rather marry someone who’s rich but ugly, or poor but attractive

Um, i think i'm gonna have to say somebody that's poor but attractive. Because i would not wanna be a gold digger, and hello, marrying somebody hot is always beneficial. Also, when i think of marrying somebody rich and ugly, i think of hugh hefner and the playboy bunnies, and that whole situation just disgusts me. 

• day 33: someone who really hurt you

I don't think i've ever been really really hurt, to the point where the problem has not been resolved. There are a lot of situations in which i feel like crap, and where all i can do is cry, and of course there are situations in which im hurt, but, for the most part, they are resolved. And i think that is a really good thing. 

• day 34: your horoscope for today and whether you think it’s accurate

"Your vital energy is perfect for getting others to see things your way — or at least to loosen up around you! It’s the best time for networking, dating or anything else that involves impressing folks." 

well i guess this is pretty accurate. Although i didn't really do anything today. 

• day 35: words you live by, why do you like them

"Apologize first and laugh as much as possible." I like them because they describe the way i like to live. apologizing first is kind of my theme song. I always am the first one to feel bad, or to try to resolve things. And i think this is a good quality. I hate having things in my life that make me upset, having people that don't like me. So i always try to resolve conflicts asap. And secondly, laughter really is the best medicine. I love laughing, and those moments when i laugh so much that i can't breathe and there are tears in my eyes are the moments i live for. 

• day 36: what you think about your friends

wow. this is quite a question. I like my friends. But at the same time, there are things about my friends that i do not like. I hate my friends on facebook. I hate facebook altogether really. there are a lot of issues, but at the end of the day, i like my friends, they make me laugh. 

• day 37: who are you

I'm Emily. That's it. 

• day 38: thoughts on your generation

we're trying to grow up too fast. We are so focused on having boyfriends and girlfriends that we are forgetting the true meaning of our teenage years, which is to relax and have fun. We are constantly being told that these are the best years of our lives, so we feel the need to constantly be overcompensating, so that when we do look back, we can say that these truly were the best years of our lives. But were they, really? When we are trying so hard to make them that way, can we really say that they were that much fun? It's like the difference between going to a party and hosting a party. Being the hostess is filled with responsibilities. We are so busy trying to make everyone else have fun that we forget that we are supposed to be having fun too. Whereas when we go to a party at someone else's house, we can forget about all of those things and just enjoy ourselves. We have a lot of feelings. There are so many things in our lives right now that are new and funny and shocking. The technology, the celebrities, the websites, all of it, it's so much to handle. We are the most computer reliant generation ever seen. Tumblr, Facebook, Google, all of the major websites, they are so much. And we feel the need to act so differently on each one. It's like this generation is filled with a bunch of crazy split-personality freaks. But what? It's not frowned upon. These people don't need help. They're, normal? There's the fake facebook personality, the tumblr personality which makes everything i huge deal, etc. My advice for this generation? Slow down, chill out, turn off the computer, and remember all of the things you used to enjoy before the internet. 

• day 39: what you think you’ve learned more from the good or the bad

Oh, the bad for sure. I think that i think about the bad much more then i think about the good. I over obsess, a lot. And also, when there are good times, i just smile and let them happen. It's better to remember them as fun times when i was happy and smiling, instead of over-analyzing them. 

• day 40: what are features you get complimented on a lot

my hair, my eyes, my tan skin. 

• day 41: write a letter to yourself stating all the things you love about yourself

Dear Emily, 

hi. 

You are beautiful. Don't ever forget that. I love your hair. Even though you can't brush through it, and trying to french braid it is always a difficulty. Your eyes are really pretty too. Take off the glasses and then you can be even prettier. I like how nice you are. I think everyone else does too. You are going to have amazing teeth when you get those nasty braces off. You will travel the world, you will get good times in swimming. You will get a book published, you will have everything you've ever wanted. You are amazing, and pleasepleaseplease don't ever forget that and lose yourself. 

byebyenow!

Emily