Motivation. Self-confidence. It's all sort of falling into place. I still have a lot of work to do with meets and stuff, but at practice at least i am doing really well.
And i guess i actually have one person whom i can thank for that. No name, but thank you. You don't know who you are, you don't know what you're doing for me, and you definitely don't know how i feel about you. I'm pretty sure about that. But thanks. I don't know why you are so motivating to me, but you are.
Anyway, today's practice was good. I didn't make it the entire way the way i wanted to, but i made it further than i thought i would. Because i was able to motivate myself a little, channel a little bit of something inside me. I liked the feeling. I liked being able to let out my breath and feel,
something. Something good. finally i had some sort of positive feeling inside about my abilities, and there was also positive reinforcement for that. We'll see how things continue, i hope that things do stay like this. I think sam was watching me. I think/hope/pray he was impressed.
because i am sososo afraid of next year. i really have no idea what is going to happen. I don't really want to know either. Oh.
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