hi

today was not a good day.

it was one of those days where you're sad, but you can't exactly figure out why. Nothing devastatingly disappointing happened, but you're still left feeling disappointed and unfulfilled. That was my day. And i don't know, but i'm just sad. Like i just want to sit in my room all night and listen to sad music and eat chocolate and look at couple posts on tumblr and feel bad about myself. But that will only result in me feeling bad about myself, and there will be no solution and i won't feel any better.

It's just so frustrating. Pretty much everything. Having to find a homecoming date, finding a guy I actually like and he doesn't like me, or finding a guy who does like me, but he moves on before anything even happens. I just don't know what i can do to make things better. Like, i'm so tired of stepping out of my comfort zone, it's really hard and makes me nervous but i'm just so tired of having to do it. i'm just tired. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. or the next day. but i don't want to sit at home either. There's nothing there, nothing here at home, nobody that i really want to see. Life's just boring, and i'm left feeling left out and unhappy.
the end