When i was younger, i always used to obsess about what things felt like. some of my favorite things to ponder were what did it feel like to be in a relationship, what did it feel like to hold hands with someone, to kiss someone, what did it feel like to have the word boyfriend come out of my mouth in a possessive tone of voice.

i still wonder about feelings, but now they are different. 

i have kissed boys before, i have held hands, i know all the aspects of relationships and i know what the feel like. but here is what i still wonder: 

what does it feel like to have someone gaze into my eyes and care about the ocean they see? 

what does it feel like to have someone